So now I have shared my big news for you all it brings my to some very real and serious concerns I know I will face after having my baby. After I had Maddisyn I sunk into a very deep depression known as postpartem depression. I took some medications for it for months to help treat it and I was very glad my doctor was right on spot with it. After Holden was born I immediately went on the medication rather then waiting for the depression to kick in. This time I am not sure if I will take the medication or look into other sources to help me in dealing with depression.
I do not want to be dependent on the medication again to feel normal and feel like perhaps I will try this time without taking them but have them knowing if I need them they are there. I will seek out other people who are dealing with depressions and find a depression forum where I can go for support from people who really know my struggle. I will seek out support groups in my community, find other people with like depressions and perhaps together we can beat it. If not then I will take the medication because it will be what is best for my body, mind, family and friends and that is OK too. I will take it as it comes and have no expectations on anything I think that way I will not be let down and can just go with the flow which is something I much prefer to do anyhow.