I have been very tired lately. Mentally, physically and spiritually exhausted has taken over with a vengance and will not be ignored.
I need to make some changes to my life to make things work better for me before I have a breakdown that will be very hard to come back from. I feel like I try to get more sleep at night knowing this is one of my issues but no matter how early I go to bed I am still kept awake until 1 am or so and then the kids have me up super early in the morning. I am not sure why they have been getting up so early but they are going to bed decently well so I will not complain about the mornings and it is not their fault that I cannot sleep at night.
Mentally my mind goes a mile a minute with the kids, school, work, this blog, my house, marriage and everything else that goes on in my life. I need to take a breath, slow down and try to mentally schedule my thoughts or else I think of too much at once get easily distracted and get nothing at all done in my life.
Spiritually I do not/have not attended church in quite some time. I do not turn my life over to Jesus or any other religious icon of sorts, I have beliefs but at this point I am not sure that even my beliefs are there ya know. I think that I do need to take some time and start attending church regularly and try to find myself and maybe get lucky and find the spiritual awakening I have been searching for.
Things need to change because I find myself falling behind in life, shutting down and feeling overwhelmed with the kids and stuff. I was very organized 6 months ago and now all of a sudden, unorganized is me.